malalai khan

// The sun is low now. The days are becoming shorter and shorter. The cicadas have stopped chirping and the peach tree is already bare of its leaves. I have always loved fall, and grateful to have been born in the month of horrors  //

18 revolutions around the sun. 
I have learnt more in one
than I have learnt in 17. 

Wisdom teeth are ripping
through my gums. 
A bloody reminder of becoming
a woman.

What if banshees in the movies
are screaming for help, 
but we make them believe 
to be afraid of themselves,
and the world.

The higher the steps become, 
the greater is the fall. 
But I am willing to watch myself try, 
and fly,
 and I will still, 
even if I fall.

// After watching Monster, I remember Grimmer's quote, "There was a reason why you were born." There is, there is, there is, I keep repeating to myself //

Is adulthood supposed to feel like falling?

Water rises on the floor up to my neck. 
My feet are not touching the ground now.
I don't know how to swim.

// Tenma said tomorrow will be a good day //